Why am I doing this?

It’s official. I am going to write a blog. At least I will make a feeble attempt to maintain one. I must confess its an attempt more out of peer pressure rather than a decision to put my thoughts to a place I can come back to. I don’t think I am comfortable with that thought. I am overly critical of my writing. Which prevents me from agonising people with my writing. The real reason of doing this post is that I am procrastinating at work. I am writing this on a word to appear working – on my proposal. Yes I have to write a proposal for my PhD project by the end of this week. So no pressures really!

Who am I kidding!! I detest writing. I detest it so much that I usually keep it for doing exams and getting grades. In short I keep it to just the absolute essentials. Sometimes I make of for not writing by reading a lot and reading indiscriminately. The last thing I read was an interesting fantasy novel. You know, the Lord Of The Rings genre of literature with the right amount of shit and romance mixed into it to make it a nice readable trash novel (I am a sucker for trash novels). I will not name the book as my lab mate really likes it and it’s just rude to pan the novel while she is sitting right next to me. At this point I wish that no one stumbles across my blog. I want it to sit like this for a while. If I still feel comfortable enough to put it out for open criticism I would probably tell the whole world about it. Well at least a few.

In school we have to choose our stream in 11th class. That is like the last two years of High School or Senior Secondary as we called it. I chose science mainly because
1. I hated commerce subjects other than economics, in which I could never get good grades.
2. I hated social studies, which comprised of History, Geography and Civics. Don’t get me wrong I like reading history and I do that whenever I find the opportunity but its just annoying to remember when did the Battle of Palasi happened. Just too much for me. Sixth and tenth standards were probably the most fun I had with history. We had India in the medieval period and world wars in these two years.
3. I didn’t want to do Hindi, Bengali or Sanskrit for another year.
4. I am hopeless with essay writing. A problem I had to deal with in English too. But in English exams I usually got away by writing a load of crap that was acceptable at that age.

So there you are, my multiple reasons for not having written for so long. Although I did create the page a month back, its just sitting there. Existing. Also having to write a proposal brings out the kind of writing skills that are completely useless for it. This class of writing is great for doodling but with proposals, you don’t get that far. I think I will look at fun fonts to put this entry online now…..